It's been a while

Well, it's been a while since I have posted and Hayden has now turned 3 ... seems impossible! I can remember so vividly being in a hospital bed praying for him to be alive when he was born and now he is a happy, healthy three year old little boy! Time has just gotten away from us. Even sadder is that he starts school on Monday. Yes, school! Amazing right! I can hardly believe that my little boy will be going to school.

I thought I would be sad, but I think school will be good for him and allow me to catch up on some "me" time. It's only 4 hours, right? Wrong! I am dying that he will be away from me for that long every day! I have already had issues with the school. I tried for weeks to set up a meet and greet with his teacher and therapists, but it didn't happen. Now, I feel like we are walking in blindly. I am apprehensive about it at best.

I stopped in on Wednesday to drop off his shot record and physical form (that I guessed he needed, noone told me) and spoke briefly with his teacher. She was running around like a crazy person and thought that he was on the spectrum. Ahhhh! So, After a short conversation with her I still don't feel like she knows anything about my child and was left with the impression that she really didn't care. That's not the way to start out with a parent ... especially of a special needs child.

(Deep Breath) I just don't know. I spoke to a friend of mine at length about her son starting school this year and he goes for 6 hours a day and another friends son goes for 5 1/2 hours. I would be so lost. But, I may end up changing schools if things don't turn around fast. This teacher seemed so frazzeled and the class size is like 8 kids for 4 adults. What is there to be frazzeled about? Really? Ugh! I am just so upset by it all. We will have to wait and see. My stomach is in knots just thinking about what I walked into Wednesday!

One thing is for sure, it won't be a while before I post again!